I sit down and remember
everything that happened.
All the joy it brought,
all the pain and sorrow that followed.
I found happiness
if only for a short while.
I thought, or hoped, it would last forever,
but it died soon after.
I never thought it would hurt so much.
Yet I can't seem to let it go.
I know if I only stopped thinking,
the pain would go away.
Yet I hold on to the memories,
that make me smile,
yet stab my heart with pain.
I just overlook the pain,
and think about the feelings.
The happy, joyous feelings,
Which all they brought was ...
pain